|In the space shuttle|
Favorite Things We Did...
This month started out good. We celebrated your brothers 8th birthday at the Houston Space Station and had a blast. We went to the Loving Hope Benefit that focuses on helping those who are struggling with their sexual identity and with Christ. We also finished our dance badge in AHG. That was a really good time actually. We all learned how to do the Charleston, Electric Slide, Break Dancing, the Jitterbug, Ballet and many other dances this last month. Of course yours was The Electric Slide or aka Cuban Shuffle, which all the girls and leaders fell in love with. I think we did this dance almost every meeting just because you kept bringing it up and saying you would lead it!! We also studied the history of our penal system and went to visit the Texas Prison Museum out in Huntsville. You got to sit in Old Sparky, spend time in a jail cell, and learn how prisoners make different types of shanks!
Your contagious smile. When you actually smile and not smirk your whole face lights up and you get a beautiful glow to you.
At the end of this month you tried to leave this world by your own hand. This month you attempted suicide for the 2nd time. It was the scariest moment in my life. We were at church when you fell out and started having seizures back to back. You then started vomiting and then going back into a seizure. I have never been more terrified in all my life then I was at that moment for you. Your friend told me that you had taken over 100 pills to kill yourself because you could not handle life anymore. I kept thinking how can my 14 year old daughter feel so alone and in such deep despair that she feels ending her life is the only way to overcome it? I thought all of this was over a boy, and partly it was, but it went so much deeper than that I would come to find out.
|The day we were leaving the hospital.|
broken, healing, love, courageous, protector.
Anything by Maroon 5..lets face it they are pretty awesome. Right about now, outside of the other songs already mentioned last month, we have not found any "new" songs that we both enjoy. Although we both do like dub-step.
|helping younger girls learn ballet moves|
Times we spend hanging out at Starbucks, drinking coffee and talking about life or people watching. I adore the alone time that we get to spend together. The times we go walking, when we are poking fun at each other, goffin off doing silly things or just sitting on the couch watching a movie.